Still with the anxiety...

Well I felt like posting, so here I go.

I booked two trips to Vegas. I'm heading there April 28 to May 2 and staying at the Tropicana. And then I'm heading down again July 31 to August 4 and staying at the Mirage.

School is crazy right now, tons of stuff due in the next couple of weeks, and then final exams...

I'm not sleeping too well lately, I still have a lot of anxiety over cancer coming back... I have my next surveillance check up on April 3. I'm still worried because the statistics say that I have a probability of relapse somewhere between 30-50% and if it were to happen it would occur within the next two years, most likely within 6 months. So, those numbers are the root cause of my anxiety and sleep difficulties. You try sleeping while worrying that a headache, back ache, or any other changes in my body are due to cancer growing and spreading inside of me...

In other news, I did a firearms safety course the other week. I'm just waiting on my possesion and acquistion license.
Today I bought a breathalyzer on eBay, which should be interesting when it arrives.

And I actually, finally, unpacked some boxes today...

Surveillance...

So, after meeting with my oncologist today I found out I'm getting the surveillance option.

Basically once a month I will be getting blood tests to check my tumor markers, every second month I will be getting a chest x-ray to ensure my lungs stay tumor-free, and every third month I will undergo the not-so-fun CT scan to make sure my lymph nodes stay normal size.

Although it will be a pain in the ass to have to go around and get these tests done and then go to the Cancer Centre every month, it seems like less of a pain than chemotherapy or lymph node surgery.

I thought my anxiety would be much better right now, but it's only marginally better. I think after I see the results of my first blood test I will start to feel more optimistic about everything.

Also, I was checking and all of last year there were a total of 99 cases of testicular cancer in BC. I mean more people probably won some type of decent sized prize in the lottery than got testicular cancer. WTF?

Oh well, life goes on....