Cancer sucks…

Well, I haven’t done a real update in a while, but this time it’s not because my life is boring…

So on Friday February 1 I go to the Doctor because I had noticed a small lump on my testicle a couple of weeks early, I didn’t really think that much about it other than I should get it checked out. My appointment with the Doctor is first thing in the morning, he takes a look at it and says I need to go see a specialist that same day. I was working that day so I have to leave work and go to this specialist. He says that I need to get an ultrasound as soon as possible and gives me 50/50 odds that it will have to come out. Now right after hearing that I have to go back to work, which as you can imagine was more than a little difficult…

Monday morning rolls around and I go into the hospital for an ultrasound. Now this is very uncomfortable for me. I have this female technician handling my boys checking them for solid masses. She checks the left one (non-lump one) first and keeps saying things like “that looks good” and “that’s fine”. She then starts to check the right one and gets oddly quiet. I know something is seriously wrong at this point. She finishes up and says I can go and that I will hear from my doctor in about two days.

I make the drive home and make it up to my bedroom and I get a phone call from my doctor. The radiologist had called him right after I left. I go into his office and he basically tells me it’s gotta come out. They give me some forms and I go back to the hospital for the second time that day and get a chest x-ray as well as give them some of my blood to take a look at. Thursday I’m going in for surgery.

It all happened so fast that I didn’t even have time to process everything. Before I knew it thursday came and into the hospital I go. They take out one of my little friends and send me home that night. I now have a rocking scar right below my waist where they cut me open to take out my boy. Of course I have to start moving on sunday, so I have a pretty chaotic week ahead of me.

Tuesday I have to go back to the hospital to get a CT scan. They make me drink three glasses of water with some type of contrast dye in it, hook me up to an IV and shoot more dye through my veins and run me back and forth through a machine to scan my insides. By the way, when they shoot the dye through your veins it’s warm and you feel like you peed your pants.

The next tuesday (Feb. 19) I go back to the doctor and he tells me that my x-ray, blood tests, and CT scans didn’t show anything but he hasn’t gotten the pathology report back from the hospital that would say exactly what was in my testicle that they took out. I go to school and get a phone call from him a few hours later. He tells me that it was cancer, and that it was an embryonal carcinoma and that I will have to follow up with the BC Cancer Agency for any further treatment.

Yesterday I finally got my appointment with the BC Cancer Agency. So March 5 I will finally have some idea what will happen next with me. The anxiety over this is worse than anything else…

If you want to know a little more, the BC Cancer Agency web page has some information on testicular cancer here:
http://www.bccancer.bc.ca/PPI/TypesofCancer/Testes/default.htm

Moving…

So it appears I have finally sold my townhouse today, although it’s not final until next Saturday. It’s nice to be done with the whole selling process, but it opened up a whole bunch of new problems…

The closing date is February 14, right in the middle of the month, which makes it difficult for me to find something to rent. And because the sale isn’t final until February 2, even if I could find something that was available for the 1st, it would be a gamble for me to pay the first months rent and deposit incase the sale fell apart.

And then there’s Lucie. Unless I can find a place to rent that is ok with a cat, I will have no choice but to put her down… I couldn’t give her away, she is so attached to me it would be unbelievably cruel (and she starts to pee on things if I’m not around). I’ve had her for 10 years, and I have to face the reality that this may be the end. I don’t know what to do…

My highlights of 2007…

Well, another year is almost over. I always get depressed in the winter and I thought it would be interesting to make a list of the good memories I have of 2007 (Although sometimes it seems it would be easier to make a list of the shitty things that happened).

I completed my Financial Management Diploma of Technology.

Drove to Seaside, OR by myself.

Went to Florida, had fun and saw a great baseball game. Saw a homeless man with a rooster on South Beach.

Had a good time working for Starbucks (and with Dan again), even if it was short-lived.

Was happy to come back to EB, despite all it’s faults, it does provide flexibility.

Went to Vegas twice in August. Saw my first live UFC, and got a tattoo.

Started the BBA program, made some pretty awesome new friends.

Finally visited my little sister in Kelowna.

Passed all my courses (even though I was really worried about one).

Thanks to a friend my otherwise shitty Christmas turned out pretty good.

And another thing or two that happened in the past month have been pretty cool too.

New Years Resolutions? I guess I have a couple of days for those still…